Real life...

I find it very hard to talk about my journey in real life to people I don't see regularly - at least once a fortnight. Sure, I'm open to bragging to family and close friends. So to friends I see occasionally I downplay my efforts. I take the compliments on board and I change the subject.

I ran into one such friend the other day at the shops and we went to the local coffee shop for a catch up (fortunately we were both sans kids as it was Easter Saturday and the shops were a nightmare!) She's 33 weeks pregnant, overweight and carrying around a lot of extra weight due to her pregnancy (her admission, not my assumption). She had that beautiful pregnancy glow, her skin was amazing and her hair - oh my goodness, long luscious locks! ENVY! (I'm still dealing with postnatal hair loss/recovery.

She was very down in the dumps about how she looked and felt and I sympathised with her - that was me, when I was pregnant with Miss M. I was so overweight and so bloated! My friend complimented me and my efforts and then in the same breath told me that I'd lost the weight so easily. I was offended, but didn't say anything. (You know how you think of 100 things to say after the fact?? grrr) I quickly winded up the coffee and went back to my food shopping so that I could get back to my parents' place. 

For a while, I couldn't work out why I felt so uptight. And it was while I was talking to my Mum about meeting up with my friend that I unravelled all of that tension. My friend had shrunk my efforts into a nice box labelled 'easy'. I can honestly say that this is one of the hardest things I have ever done: the constant battle of the mind to eat well, make smarter choices and to exercise consistently. My 20kgs that I have lost have not come off easily. Yes, I've had fabulous losses most weeks, but I have worked so bloody hard each and every week (well except my last 'lazy' week).

To others it may have seem quick (even my parents think I'm losing weight too fast) and the weight has definitely come off quicker than I put it on, but I'm working hard.

Bloody hard.

I hit it!! I've lost 20kg! Well, more than that actually! I've lost 20.8kg... Holy moly! I am in shock that I have lost that amount of weight! TAKE THAT DOUBTERS! (Hehehehe not any of you, you've been behind me 100%)